Scared Sleepless

I'm scared. I can't sleep.

Truth is, I took a sleeping pill over two hours ago.
I'm wide awake. Ok, a little groggy, but awake.

I've been running a fever since about the third week of January.
It's now the 21st of June. They can't figure out the source.

I've had every sort of blood test known to man.
Ultrasounds.
MRIs and MRAs.
CT scans.
X-rays.
EKGs.

Tomorrow another ultrasound to check the world's smallest kidney stone.
It's still IN my kidney and has been squatting there for over a year.
And causing some pain issues too.

And an echocardiogram of my heart. Repeat from a year ago.

I leave tomorrow for "home", where there are bigger hospitals.
A second opinion a few days from now.
A second opinion of what exactly, I'm not certain.

All I know is this:
I'm scared sleepless.